A - Age: sixteen B - Bed size: full C - Chore you hate: bathroom!! D - Dog’s name: Sammy E - Essential start your day item: radio F - Favorite color: orange G - Gold or Silver: silver. H - Height: 5’3” ishh? i have no idea really I - Instruments you play: singing? but used to play trumpet J - Job title: student &/or babysitterrr. K – Kids: pets L - Living Arrangements: parents. M - Mother’s name: Helen N - Nicknames: Jenni, Jankk, JJank, JJ, Jubbles, boat. bahaha. O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: 3 other times. P - Pet Peeve: too manyy. haha. Q - Quote from a movie: It’s where I keep all my things. Get a lot of compliments on this. Plus it’s not a purse, it’s called a satchel. Indiana Jones wears one. R - Right or left handed: right. S - Siblings: only childd T - Time you wake up: weekdays: 545ishh (most of the time) weekends: whenever U - Underwear: yeah?! V - Vegetable you dislike: brussel sprouts, onions, cooked carrots (i only like them raw with ranch. haha), sometimes lettuce. W - Workout style: haa. X - X-rays you’ve had: mouth, knee, arm, foot, finger. what havent i had an xray on?! Y - Yesterday’s best moment: MAKEOVERS! or famous daves<3 Z - Zoo favorite: Monkeys or Fishies. (:
so today in english, mr. earl was explaining different things about love and valentines day stuff and it got me thinking about so much. mr. earl said that there isnt one way to love something because there are many different forms of love. whether it loving your parents, your friends, a partner, a pet, a neighbor, or some new tv show. they’re all different and theres different ways of expressing love for each thing. when you think about it you probably think about love at least one time everyday. it doesnt matter what it is, its just liking something with a strong liking, which we put into a word such as love. ive heard people say, if hate is such a strong word, then why do we toss around love like its nothing. but thats not entirely true. i mean you could go up to one of your friends and say, “i love you” but you could mean a number of things. you could mean i love you as in the sense of, dude what you just did was amazing and i couldnt have done it better myself or something like youre always there for me when i need you. theres different things about love that we dont entirely get because love is probably on the top 10 list of most confusing things we deal with in a lifetime. love is difficult, love is a commitment, love is honest, etc. you could explain love as different things, but it means something different to each person. you could also say, love isnt. like love isnt easy, love isnt something with an instruction manual, love isnt an easy way out, etc. you could put anything with love and i bet there is someone out there that will argue the statement you just made. i guarantee everyone views love as a different thing. now me personally, if i tell my friends i love them, they know that theyre going to stick around for a while because love, in my book, is a strong word. but there are times that you just get caught up in the moment and say i love this and i love this. and then it gets difficult for people to tell if you really love something. after today’s discussion, im going to think more about what im saying about love before i actually say it and someone takes it the wrong way. im just glad i finally got something out of english class that really gets me thinking!(:
I can honestly say i have someone i can tell everything to. absolutely everything. well maybe not everything, i choose which things i share and what i keep inside. but my dad is the one person i can count on for anything. tonight we were driving home after he picked me up from my moms and we had the most heart to heart i think we have ever had before. he told me things that i would have never expected from him. whether it was things he has done in the past or just things that i never in a million years thought he would be interested in. i love talking to him because i know its not the talk where one person is talking and the other person’s drifting off not listening. he listens because i know he really truly cares. i know hes listening because he voices his opinion and he’s usually careful in what he says to me just with different things. but tonight, tonight was different. i dont know how to exactly explain it. but i feel 10 times closer to him after tonight. i told him a few things that i didnt think anyone would get out of me, things that no one would have ever guessed about me. just different things. and the same with him. he told me things that i would have never in a million years put two and two together. when i was in the car tonight i felt completely safe, yeah, i might sound corny, but i dont know how to explain the feeling. it was the best talk ive had with him since he explained things to me when i was younger. i felt surrounded by love and trust and just feelings i never really get from my dad. i usually think of my dad as more of my best friend rather than a parent, but tonight i felt the parent come out of him full blast. i felt him surrounding me with words of trust. and i realize now, because im getting older, that hes letting me loose a little more a little everyday. and i realize now that he trusts me with certain things because he knows i wont screw it up. i love him with everything. i love him so much its not even explainable. he is the one person that i can honestly say i would take a bullet for. i would do anything in the entire world for him and i know he would do the same for me. yeah, we have our little arguments, but its mostly about the stupidest things, or we’re just joking around. if i didnt have him, my life would fall apart. he is the first person i go to with huge news, he is the one person that knows more about me than anyone else, he is the one person i would go to if i was in serious trouble. and after tonight, im not afraid to tell him anything, because i know he’s been through so much in his life that he has all the right answers. he is my best friend, my rock, my shoulder to lean on, he is my everything, but most of all, he is my daddy and i would give up everything for him. i honestly dont know where i would be right now if i didnt have him in my life. if i didnt have him to fall back on, i wouldnt be the person i am today.
summer! everything about summer. summer ‘09 was probably the best summer of my life. from spending weeks at my dads house to spending every other night at some friends house. i miss the baseball games and the pool parties. i miss the flour fights and the movie nights. i miss walking through the mall for hours and then sitting in the food court eating and people watching. i miss tag and the movie nights, water balloon fight, exploding pope, the fish fries, and trying to watch Coraline with Matt. i miss the days at Claire’s house or Abby’s house just doing nothing at all and still having a blast. i miss walking to the park and prank calling people. i miss taking a bunch of pictures on Claire’s web cam because i was obsessed with it. i miss going to Danielle and Ashley’s houses for the first time and swinging on Ashley’s grandpa’s swings and freaking out because she told me that someone broke one of them before. i miss trying to pull all nighter’s with Danielle and crashing while watching wrestling. i miss the swimming with Dalien and Staci in freezing water because summer only has about a week left. i miss Lexy’s mom yelling at me because i talked back or i didn’t get something for her. i miss Emma screaming my name in the pool because she wants me to throw her again. i miss Bria and Dorothy and how we spent a week at Nana’s house, walking with Kenny until 3 in the morning, meeting up with some guy and practically crashing some 7th grade party. i miss losing uncle Dave in jcpenny’s because we went two different ways and he didn’t her the announcement of his name. i miss the drive ins with crystal so much! i miss laughing and telling the story about how Bria and i “snuck in”. i miss talking through the first movie with her and Bria because it sucked and we had a lot to catch up on. i miss telling crystal everything and not being afraid of her judgment. i miss josh and his singing and dancing to birthday sex. i miss the family gatherings even though we had a few funerals but in the end it turned out to make my relationships stronger with crystal, Bria, and Nana. i miss the whole family. i miss Reid and babysitting him. i miss running around outside the house because paying tag and running are two of his loves. i miss teaching him new things and fighting about losing some game on wii. i miss Joe and Letha and just spending time with them. i miss the emails back and forth with Angela bugging her to let me meet Franklin and see her new house. i miss the long talks with Allison before we go to bed, spending hours finding something to watch on TV and ending up just talking through it so we miss it anyway. i miss the walks around the neighborhood and playing basketball against Allison and her neighbors. i miss the water balloon fight that lasted 5 minutes. i miss Staci getting yelled at by Lexy because shes squirting lotion all over the room or because shes spraying febreze all over. i miss the dinner at Olga’s just to reunite the headbanders and make it official and laughing at the people staring at us because were too loud. i miss the trying on dresses. i miss the time at dicks where we were greeting all the single guys that walked in or out. i miss laying out on Lexy’s trampoline and falling asleep on Staci’s butt and watching the clouds. i miss the sunburns because of swimming too much. i miss the rainy days just walking out and feeling it pour down. i miss the pool party with Staci Logan Lexy and Allison spending hours in the pool. i miss taking naps with Emma on the couch because shes to stubborn to admit that shes tired. i miss the arctic cafe trips and eating ice cream until we got sick. i miss Claire freaking out because she doesn’t like to cross streets. i miss Bridget’s party with prego Dalien and Allison. i miss cedar point and freaking out because it was my first time on the dragster. i miss eating frozen chocolate covered bananas scoping out 3 lonely hot guys to ride coasters with. i miss truth and dare and spending more time thinking of them rather than doing them. i miss the sparklers and pop its on the 4th of july after a mud hens game with Staci and Allison. i miss the big flour fight and jumping in the pool with our clothes on just to cross it off our “summer goals” list. i miss the endless hours of wii consisting of rock band and American idol. i miss everyone getting mad at me because i always beast at American idol. i miss the arguments over which song to pick on itunes and what movie to watch before bed. i miss trying to fit a million people in Allison’s bed so no one felt left out on the floor. i miss pushing Staci over because shes on top of me in the middle of the night because i move around too much. i miss making Allison mad because dalien, saydi, and i are talking too loud so she cant fall asleep. i miss practically living at Allison’s house. i miss her family cook outs and pool parties. i miss talking to her for hours about boys and stressing on the last days of summer because we don’t want school to start. i miss talking to her about my first kiss and about everything we were going through at the time. i miss butter and his wake up calls. i miss the nights where we had everyone together. Allison, Staci, dalien, and Lexy, and at the end of summer add Lindsey in there too. i miss it all so bad. i miss taking a billion senseless pictures and videos. i miss watching the funniest videos on YouTube and listening to the dumbest songs that make me laugh every time i hear them. i miss making cookies and eating all the dough and having nothing left to put in the oven. i miss everything about this past summer and i want it all back. the headbanders were born this summer and i would give anything to go back to that night. just a replay, nothing changed. i miss everything. i would give anything to have another summer like this. i want all the good times back. i want the memories to flood my head so all i think about is friends, family, and laughter. i want it all so bad. i want everything back to the way it was last summer. i want it. i want it. i want it. ive never wanted something so bad! i want summer of ‘09 to come back. i miss it all.