this will forever be my favorite picture<3 #ilovemymomma #throwbackthursday (Taken with Instagram)

Today was seriously the best day ive had in a long time! woke up this morning and took a shower first thing to start off my day rather than being lazy for the first few hours. then woke my momma up only to find a great day of adventures with her to follow<3 went off to the mall to kill a few hours before her ultrasound. i love my momma time sooo much! i could spend everyday with that woman, i love her that much! we grabbed some lunch at chic fil a which turned into some much needed talking. then we managed to wobble our way around to do some shopping.(; found baby jade some pretty cool stuff and got a few laughs out of the rest. we found some ugly freaking shoes outside of dillards, of course she had to stop. lol! we were on our way out of the mall when it started to sprinkle…man ive never seen her run so fast with the baby! lol. then jered called and wanted a pretzel so we had to run back in and get one…literally :P then we got home, got the kids, and went off to the hospital for the ultrasound. jade, jakob, and i had to wait for like an hour before we could go back. i was just simply amazed when we got back there to watch. ive never seen anyyything like it before. i was kinda choking up when i realized that it was so real. im so excited for the baby! ive never had a sibling before and this time its going to be from day one!(: i knew it was going to be a boy, just by the way mom was talking and im glad that he can carry on the nalepa name and take after jaja joe. <3 after the ultrasound we went back home to get ready for dinner. i worked on my homework a little and then straightened moms hair. her hair is getting so long! but still as beautiful as ever!! then we headed out to nagoya with the family to meet up with nikki and hers. it was a great time with loved ones and yummmy food!(: then we went home, i put her to bed and rubbed her legs till she fell asleep, as usual. and i went home..now here i am watching a lifetime movie. lol. i love my mom, more than anything in the world. shes who can make me smile on the absolute worst days. shes the only person i want to talk to even when everyone is reaching out their ears to listen. i know i bug her and i know im always around her, but i cant help it. i love that woman more than words can describe and more than anyone will ever understand. shes given me more than a place to stay, shes filled the empty void ive had my whole life and no one will ever fill that place. i just really hope she understands how much i truly love her. <3 today was just a simple day, but ment more to me than anyone will ever understand. i love you momma, with all my heart!

why do things have to change? I know I’m starting a new chapter but this was just about the best one…why did it all come to a crashing end? things happen for a reason right? well what if I don’t like the reason? (Taken with Instagram at SHAC 156 Owens)

I would just like to say that we have both been in tough spots and put in difficult situations, but the one and only person that can kiss my boo-boos and make it all better is, without a doubt, my momma. She has been through more with me in the past couple-few years than anyone ever has. She’s the one person that knows what I’m thinking before I have a chance to think it. Shes the one that can be miles away and still know what I’m doing. She trusts me and that’s all I need. I know I could count on her with anything I needed and shes capable of making me smile when I’m in my most darkest times. I wouldn’t trade her for anything. It might be confusing looking from the outside, but what matters is that I have her on the inside. What matters is that I know she loves me and she knows I love her. Shes the most amazing person I’ve ever met and she has one of the biggest hearts I’ve ever seen. She is truly superwoman and always has a beautiful smile on her face, no matter what the situation. She’s completely stunning, inside and out. I am so grateful that I can call her my momma and I am truly blessed that God put her in my life, because I wouldn’t be where I am at this very moment without her. No one will ever understand how much I love this woman. But what matters is that she knows I will forever be there when she needs me. Anything at all, I’m there. I know she would do the same, that’s what mommas do for their daughters. I really could care less what people think of what I did, but that’s because there are only a select few that know the entire story. I’ve been through rough times, but those are all in my past because I have everything I need with her. She filled the void that I’ve had for too many years. 

I guess what I’m trying to say here is, Thank you mom. For all you do, for all you’ve done, and for everything that you will continue to do for me. Thank you for giving me a place to stay, thanks for letting me eat your amazing food, thanks for putting up with my crap day in and day out, thanks for showing me what family really means, and most importantly, thank you for giving me a mothers love. From the very bottom of my heart, I appreciate everything you stand for and everything you do. I appreciate you not only as my mom, but as a person as well. And know, that when you feel like there’s no one on your side and you’re fighting whatever you’re fighting on your own, I’m there. Always by your side, I will be there. You know me better than I know myself and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Thank you for listening to me and thank you for understanding me and where I come from. Thanks for being there when I needed someone and no one else was there. I know you have a lot you’re going through and I’m just the kid, but remember that I will always be here if you ever need anything at all. You know I would do anything for you. I love you, that’s what I do. I see the love beaming right off of you when you smile, I see the look in your eyes when you look at us kids doing something, I feel the love when you’re around, its obvious. Even if you pick on me sometimes, I don’t mind because I know that you truly love me and I know that I have a special place in your heart. I would spend every waking moment with you if I could, but I have to share. So the time that I do get with you, I cherish forever. You will forever be in my heart and on my mind and you will always be my momma. Thank you mom. I love you, and I cant stress that enough!<3

I have done a lot of growing physically and I think its time now to start growing up mentally as well. I know that I can be a huge pain in the butt and a complete brat at times, but that doesn’t change the fact that I appreciate every person that has a special place in my heart; they know who they are. 

My daddy is a huge part of my life. Without him, I wouldn’t be here…literally. He gives me everything I need and I couldn’t ask for a better dad. He means the world to me and I wouldn’t change that for anything. We have more of a friendship going and I’m ok with that because we know when to be serious and when to joke around. We might get mad at each other and argue a lot, but that’s because I truly am a daddy’s girl (:

I have someone to thank a huge amount for where I am today. I wouldn’t be in the exact place I am right now. She has filled this void that I have had for so long and no one will begin to know the feeling I had before I met her. No one will understand how much she means to me until they have experienced what I have throughout my life time. She is the most amazing person I’ve met yet and I appreciate everything she has ever done and continues to do for me. She knows what I’m thinking without my saying a word. She knows what I’m doing when I’m 500 miles away. She knows me better than I know myself and she can read me like no one has before. She gets me, no one understands where I come from, but she does. As soon as I met her and talked with her for hours on end and told her everything there was to be told, she gets it. She listened to me better than anyone else ever has. I know I might be selfish with her time a lot, but that’s only because I came from being an only child and its still sort of new having siblings. She tells me that all she did was give me a place to stay and straighten out my thoughts but she gave me so much more, she gave me a home. She gave me a place with crazy kids filled with laughter, a place with home cooked meals every night, a place with family traditions and parties, but most importantly she gave me a place with motherly love and a family. She took me in as her own and treated me like I was hers. She gave me all the love that I needed and searched for until I met her. I’ve had such an empty space in my heart before she came into my life and I thank God everyday for her because he knows how much she means to me. I would do anything for her. He knows I could never live without her and I love her with everything I have. She is more than just a person to me, she is my momma and that is more than I have ever dreamed of. <3 I love you Leanna Marie Nalepa. I just want you to understand where I’m coming from when I say I feel a little distant from you. I truly know that youre going through a lot right now because I listen to you when you talk and I read you when you don’t. I don’t mean to bug you and bother you, I just love you with everything I have and I want you to know that you will forever hold the biggest part of my heart. Just know that I will be there whenever you need me and please promise me that you will always be my momma, no matter where our lives take us. Promise me that what ever life throws at us, I can always fall back on you when I need it. You have taught me more than anyone. You showed me respect, you gave me responsibility, and you have shaped me into the person I am today. You may not think you’ve done much, but trust me, you were the one person that cared enough to do what you did and I could never thank you enough. 

There are a lot more people I could thank and explain why they mean what they mean to me but I would be typing for days. Nik is another special someone that I thank for being there for me. Even if she makes me watch the news evverytime I’m over, I still love her(; if its movie nights with kai or Mario kart nights with bean, if its Keith helping randy fix my car or Keith helping jered throw me in the pool, its always a great time! I love them so much!<3 

I have many friends, but only a few really true friends that I know would be there for me. There’s only one special friend that has literally been there the entire time though. 13 years and still going strong. From twins in elementary to reading each others mind in college, we are always together and will forever be inseparable. We’ve change our group of friends, but we always have each other. I know I could count on her if I seriously needed her. She’s the only one that can look at me and just make me laugh. We’ve shared some crazy memories, but I wouldn’t trade any of them for anything because they mean a lot to me. I love you Staci!<3

I know I worry way more than I should and I’m up peoples butt all the time, but that’s me. The people that have stuck in my life for as long as they have put up with me and that’s all I could ask for. I am very happy with where my life is going and all the people I’ve mentioned are a huge part of where I ended up. You never know how much you appreciate something until its gone and I don’t ever want to find that out. I appreciate everyone in my life and I never hesitate to tell them I love them because it could be my last. Life isn’t anything but a long road trip filled with a lot of twists and turns, and pot holes and cracks, but only you can choose the path you take, and only you can set the speed limit on how fast to take it. It might be a crazy life, but its my life and its one well worth living!